Goddess, I Am.

A new week starts today, and I’m very much looking forward to it because I know without a doubt that it’s going to be a very good one. And no, it’s not because I suddenly discovered a new skill in clairvoyance. I guess it’s mostly because last week was an all-time low, and I honestly don’t believe that anything can be worse than that.

I’m not going to go into any details because I do wish to keep certain things private (believe it, or not), but in a nutshell, the entire week was a seemingly endless cycle of hurts and anger and tears. To be perfectly honest, we were this close to calling off the wedding, white gold rings and all, because there was a point when it seemed like marriage was the biggest mistake we were ever likely to make.

Yes, it was THAT bad, and yes, it was absolute torture. But yes, it also had to happen. Despite the pain we both put each other through, I’m still glad that that’s over with. That we’ve really and truly addressed issues so sensitive that we’ve always found ourselves skirting around them in the past. That we’ve said everything that needed to be said in all honesty without having to water anything down. That the floodgates opened then when we still had every chance to walk away before a marriage certificate made it all too late. That somehow we emerged unscathed from what could have easily been the end of the road for us.

From the moment the very last round of accusations and insults was exhausted, we knew for sure what we’ve always known all along – that we can never be apart. The frightening doubts have left with the last of the hurtful expletives. And just as suddenly as it came, that single week in hell finally left us in peace.

Our love has been strong right from the start, but our relationship was more fragile than we both cared to admit – that is, until we were forced to face everything that was wrong about us. For the first time in 20 months, we are finally meeting halfway. We know each other so well now that if we were to exchange bodies, nobody will ever be able to tell the difference.

We are now stronger, wiser, and infinitely closer. We are happier – not in the giddy and excited way that is fleeting, but in contented bliss that lasts. We now respect each other more, and we’re both more appreciative of the other.

Yes, we really are now ready to live the rest of our lives together. And we look forward to forever.

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